As a typical woman i am always worried about what i look like and how much i weigh etc. My little girl is nearly a year old and i still have a stone to lose to be at my pre pregnancy weight. Also i have a few weddings to attend this year with my partner and i want to look fantastic.

So from today i will be doing a small exercise routine and healthy eating plan too. I have just got a lot of fruit and veg for my little girl as she is eating by herself so its encouraging me to learn how to cook and live a healthy life style.

Exercise wont be going to the gym as i do not have the time being a full time mum. However i will be using something called blogolates which i found on youtube, so when my little girl is napping i will be cracking out an hours worth of exercise each day just to start building me up and i will plan on walking more. There is so many wooflands round my area seems odd not to use it. So over the coming weeks i will be taking my daughter out for a walk for an hour every other day.

Eating habbits will be lots of fresh fruit and veg and will learn how to cook nice healthy meals for us all so we can have a family meal.

I am very motivated to do this so im hoping by the time my first weddig comes up i will be a size 12 and not a 14. If anyone is going through something similar do get hold of me would be great to have some support.

Amy.

I can proudly say that i am completely in love with my gorgeous little girl who is now 9 months old! Only a few months and she will be a year, they really do mean it when they say time flies. Literally feels like she was born about a week ago. On the up side though i am starting to see a little person develop and become her own and i can say it is a magical and wondrous thing to witness. She is now eating more food by herself and picking it up and playing with it, which is messy but fun at the same time. The health visitor told me some children are resilient to eating by themselves because when their parent feeds them its more fun, so with this in mind i made it fun for her and also eat the same things so that she gets that mummy eats it and its good for her. She is a little monkey. She has taken to eating on her own like a duck to water, little bit off to start with but she now loves it and gets really excited when i give her foods to try. Banana is something she loves and buttery hot cross buns.

Lilith-Rose xx

She also is learning how to crawl at the moment which entails her army crawling then bouncing on her knees for a few seconds. It is so funny but each time she does it i want to burst into tears because i’m so proud of her.  She can pull herself up so she is standing holding the couch and is babbling a lot more along with saying both mumma and dadda and going “awe” at me a lot, mainly when i give her kisses. She is an incredible little baby and i cannot be a more proud mummy right now. I never thought at the age of 22 i could look at something and feel so much love and devotion for them and want to do my best for them but she is it. She is my heart and soul. I love her so much,

Such a happy girl….takes after her mummy

Now onto me personally… Family life is fantastic! My partner Alex is amazing with my little girl and its lovely having a proper little family. It makes me happy every day to know that i have him. 4 months we have been together, yes its not a long time but i know this time is perfect. I wouldn’t change anything about him at all and i know how much he loves me which is always nice He is perfection. He has made me so happy since being back with my mum and dad down south. I thought things couldn’t get any better when i came back down but he has really changed my opinion. He wants to be there and wants to be involved and accepts me for who i am. I couldn’t feel more loved and appreciated. Things are progressing with us and its really good to see how far things have come in such a short space of time.

Myself and my partner, Alex<3

I have also lost a stone in 6 months! I am loving this. That is half the baby weight that i put on when i was pregnant and i’m now aiming to lose the last stone and then get into shape for the summer. Hopefully be a yummy mummy by then haha. Confidence is a big thing after having a baby and it all goes out the window. You feel rubbish, you don’t sleep properly, you don’t have time to do your hair or makeup, a bath is a luxury and as for spending time on your own….well you have to wait a while for that. Don’t get me wrong i have had a tonne of help since being back down south to get me feeling the way i do now. My mum and dad and partner are all to thank for that, they have boosted my confidence and made me feel incredible since being back with them. I honestly could not be happier with things. I am feeling good about myself and what i have planned for the rest of the year. I have planned to get a degree, get a small part time job and be a loving and devoted girlfriend and mother. I love how i look (bar my root regrowth) and feel sexy when i get dressed up to go out…like last weekend. Me and Alex went to a family meal and i thought i would make an effort so i got a nice dress and did myself up, put on my heels and walked casually down the stairs…i could have gleamed when i saw Alex’s face, he looked really happy and impressed so i knew i looked lovely to him, which is always good. He then tells me i look so beautiful, which, like any woman, made my heart melt. Its a small compliment but it went a long way, i was really happy and confident about going out and meeting the rest of the family. I had such a lovely night.

All in all i’m just stupidly happy. This is something i could not envision this time last year. I was miserable. Now nice to know that i have a place in someones heart and i am doing a good job in all aspects of my life so far. Hoping to start using my camera again soon and taking some photographs. Lots more updates to come on life, love, career and family. Comment and subscribe <3 Much love. xx Amy.

DAY 2 of snow. Now this is a rare thing over here in England….this snow business. We hardly get it and when we do its not expected, like a few years back when it snowed in April. The calendar is completely screwed when it comes to snow in Britain. We all moan that we never have any snow but when it truly comes shows the nature of our attitude to the crude British weather.

WE COMPLAIN! Something us British are really good at is complaining. After 2 days of having snow present i am sure a lot of people are fed up of it. Personally i think it is fascinating when it snows, i love taking photographs and i have my daughter to see her first snowfall along with teaching her what snow is.

When you are a child snow is the most glorious thing to fall upon the earth, however, turning into an adult skews that perception you had a child. Mainly because as an adult you have things to do such as shopping, working, etc but when you are a child you can build snow people and snowball fight with each other. It is glorious having snow when you are a child. I love the snow now but when it was a kid it may as well have been my birthday whenever it snowed, i loved it that much. Always get up early and play snowballs, build igloo type houses, snowmen and make the biggest snowball you can by rolling it around the grass field at the back of your mum and dads house. It was joyous.

Whilst i have had snow here in England i have taken some photographs, with my mobile phone (Galaxy s3) mainly because i cannot find my DSLR camera at my parents house. Hopefully it won’t die on me so when i do dig it out i can start using it straight away. I haven’t been actually doing anything whilst it’s snowed but show my daughter what it was and she didn’t think much of it but she is only 7 months old, so it is to be expected.

Hope you enjoy my photographs, if you have done anything interesting while the snow has been around please comment

Amy.

So we all survived the “end of the world” as we know it. HURRAY. Weirdly i did not believe in anything about the calender stuffs and the worlds end because i googled it too many times and researched into background information allowing me to not have a fear or worry about it. Now i am taking life for all its glory and diving head first into a happy 2013. This WILL be MY year to turn heads and make something of my life. I am DETERMINED to get things right and make it one of my happiest years yet.

Looking over 2012 it has taught me a lot and made me realize certain things. Over the course of last year i had my ups and my downs. Mainly downs, but learning from them times i can now rise and create my new life and make myself a better person. For about 6 months of 2012 i can say i wasn’t happy. I was pregnant and nervous, yes pregnancy is a good thing but when you have self doubt and problems around you, it takes it toll on you and your emotions. I have learnt from my past mistakes that last year brought me and vow NEVER to go back to the life i had. This year i will not get or be depressed and i will not take my partner for granted and fuck it up like all the times before.

My gorgeous Lilith-Rose June2012

The end of last year was really when things started to turn around for me. I had my little girl in June of 2012 and she is happy and healthy. Having her has changed me for the better and i have become a happy and confident mummy. I decided to move back to my parents house, thus making me happier in an instant. I have built on my friendships with close people and my family all in a short space of time. All of the events of the last 3 months of 2012 have made my life brilliant and worth living. I feel re-born and rejuvenated in myself as a person. I am happier, kinder, friendlier and most of all more loving and caring.

As i step into 2013 with both feet i feel confident that this year i can finally get to where i want to be and have all the love and the support i can have from those around me. I am stupidly close with my mother and i know she is happy with me and my daughter being around her so much which is really handy if i need to get things done i have no worries on who will stick around and look after her for me. I have a lot of plans for this year and have no doubt in myself or anything around me that they will fail.

Now New Years resolutions is something i have NEVER stuck to and carried out. It is always the same, i will lose weight, i will improve on my look etc. All vain and horrible things that i get depressed about eventually. So this year my resolution is to carry on being happy with where i am in my life. What are your resolutions? Would love to hear some….

My daughter is nearly 7 months old now, which seems completely crazy but i love getting quality time with her and making her laugh and seeing all the new things she is learning. Plus there is a tiny bit of a tooth poking through her gum, it is adorable. She is the best thing that is a replica of myself. I want to teach her everything and be the best mum i can be to her this coming year and the years to come. She is such a diamond.

Always smiling ^^

My partner and me are on really good grounds. I am really happy with him and confident about our relationship. OK we are only human and get the emotions anyone gets in a relationship but as we do we communicate and trust each other. Coming from where we have last year trust has certainly grown and it cannot be broken with anything. We do lots of different things together as a couple and he gets on with my family and vica versa. This is completely different to anything i have had before, even chilling in and watching comedy central all night is fun with each other and he always makes me laugh and just gets me….its lovely and i love him so much. He’s my world (probably reading this smiling too ^) and i wouldn’t change him for anything, he is perfect. I know everyone says nobody is perfect but when you step into my shoes you will realize just how perfect i think he is. He makes me so happy, happier than i have ever been, true happiness and true love.

Me and Alex <3

I plan on going to university this year and getting a degree in business and also start doing some hairdressing training if someone will take me on. The only thing i have against me is my age…i will be 22 this year and hairdressers normally don’t like the older apprentice, they like fresh youngsters such as 16 year olds who have just come out of school. However, i will show my determination and strive to get into the hairdressing business and break through and take creativity to a new height! This is my dream and  i will get it. Even if i have to grab the tip and pull myself up the ladder of success i will get there in the end.

Anyway, enough of my ramblings. I hope everyone can be as happy as i am and will continue to be this year. I wish you all the very very best of luck for your plans this year. Keep Happy!

Amy.

This weeks theme is Delicate! So  here is my interpretation: I have used the photograph of my kitten Lola, because i think (bar children) animals are very delicate creatures especially small animals such as cats and hamsters etc.

Theme for the week….Delicate.

Please comment and like the post follow if feeling generous, would love to have more people looking at my blog and getting involved.

Amy.

Hopefully we get snow this year which would increase my mood and make me one of the happiest people ever. Snowball fights, snow angels and kisses in the snow are all things im hoping for in the next few years. Christmas is one of the most romantic times of the year (personally) and everyone deserves to be happy and enjoy each moment of it.

Christmas shopping continues next weekend…as an adult i am terribly dissorganised when it comes to presents but then again everyones pretty much getting more than one gift so i need to spread money costs. The hustle and bustle of Christmas shoppers is something i really enjoy. This is mainly because most people are like me and do things last minute but it makes Christmas a reality which thus makes me happy. The day shall be spent with my family and partner stuffing our faces and watching shit tv all day. I havent had a Christmas at home for 2 years and it is my babys 1st Christmas so i could not be happier to be spending it with my family as they get to enjoy all the moments with me at this magical time.

I hope everyone feels so joyful just like i do when this time of year comes. Doubt i will post before Christmas so i wish everyone a very merry Christmas.

much love.Amy♥

since moving i could not be happier and how i feel about my current partner is beyond beliefe. I now understand how someone xan mean so much and its a weird feeling but i actually want to be with him for the rest of my life. I know he is the same as we have both layed the  cards on the table, so to speak and its nice to be with someone who has the same morals and the similar background as you. As any normal girl i am scared but im powering through that and taking each day as it comes with my man. I could not feel any happier with how my life is going with him and the direction that we are heading.

the harsh realities of life hit me hard today. Within my life i have my own obsticles to overcome and things to sort. My main issue is my daughter and the personal issues i have to battle with daily concerning her. As well as myself my partner has his own problems to sort out as well. Being in an adult relationship involves helping and doing all you can for one another and so far so good with all of the things we need to do. I have my family providing me with a lot of support which is fantastic and they are such a good network for me.

In a world full of wonder and amazement i find myself being consumed with the harsh reality i face everyday. The happiness i feel is concrete and loving but the reality needs to be sorted so that everyone can move on with stable minds and clear heads with whats to come in the future.

2012 is nearly over….lets hope we can start

a fresh and 2013 will be the start of the rest of my happy and loving life.

Amy

I humble apologies for the lacking of posting since my last emotional breakdown i seemed to suffer for about 6 months. Since then i have had a major over haul of what most sane people would call “life”. It is currently chucking it down with rain outside as i sit nice and cosy with my little one blasting music and writing this. Anyways, back to the complete over haul….

Me and my little one moved to my mum and dads house. After 4 years of being an adult and living how i wanted to it was finally time to surrender and come clean that i needed my mum and dads help. I couldn’t do it like i was in Liverpool. So i upped sticks and took an hour travel to my mums house with most of my possessions in the back of a van….exciting. A new chapter in my life to start and get back in touch with old friends, go out and catch up with people, see my family and spend quality time with my mum. The thing you should all know is that i am dead close with my mum. Me and her get on so well and tell each other everything, its almost like having a really old best friend but she can yell at me for being untidy. So it is nice being back with her and i love how my family are with my daughter. The love her unconditionally and want to have her all the time.

My own emotional well being has changed dramatically. Emotional breakdowns are a thing of the past now a days. Since i have moved down to my mums i have not felt depressed for a long period of time. My daughter is a lot happier as she does not have to sit back and watch mummy panic and stress then ending up crying her eyes out afterwards. I have completely moved on from my last relationship, yes we still speak but we are both happier how we are. I find myself smiling stupidly a lot of the time about tiny little things that have happened or people i am going to see. I am a lot more confident in myself and my parenting skills which has made me a better person. I have some insecurities, don’t get me wrong, who doesn’t? Overall though i am happy where i am down south.

Friends and family are so delighted to have me and my little one around all the time. I have started seeing my two best friends on a regular basis which has really cheered me up a lot and made me happy along with the fact i am seeing family who i have not seen since i was 17. Its unbelievably nice how things have turned out. Then lastly there is my current relationship. The guy i am with is pretty god damn incredible. Okay, i didn’t plan on meeting him and everything that has happened but i wouldn’t change it for the world. Now i get the saying someone can quickly become so important. He is really important to me and we share a lot of the same things in common along with having a good time together. He is pretty much all i want in a guy, he cares about me, affectionate, good looking, funny, kind and sweet all rolled into one! I feel like i’m 16 again….

Hope i didn’t bore you…Please share feelings and thoughts

Amy.

]]> http://photogirl23.wordpress.com/2012/11/21/the-start-of-something-beautiful/feed/ 0 IMG-20121019-00308 amyinthemirror grandad and lilith-rose Moi IMG-20121019-00308 http://photogirl23.wordpress.com/2012/10/26/looking-deeper-into-my-mind/ http://photogirl23.wordpress.com/2012/10/26/looking-deeper-into-my-mind/#comments Fri, 26 Oct 2012 02:28:34 +0000 amyinthemirror http://photogirl23.wordpress.com/2012/10/26/looking-deeper-into-my-mind/ Continue reading »]]> So as i sit here at 3.15am typing this god damn post my mind is whirling with 1001 things that will most likely to effect the rest of my life. Personally i do not see how people cope with so many things at once because it feels like i am going to explode! There is a lot going on in my life at the moment and it is something i have been instructed to take one step at a time. 

Sleep is nearly if completely vanished. I have now had what seems to be insomnia and its killing my routine. Mainly fucking with me and my system and its having an impact on my daughters routine. I HATE IT. I want to be up and about doing things from 7am till 5pm and having a nice day….but no….hello sleep deprivation. Sleeping in until like 11am is not good for me but then mustering the energy to get out of bed is the hardest thing now a days. 

I’m a parent and its something i have to do. I have to get on with the day and look after my daughter because i need to and i need to sort things out. 

Life needs to change. I need to change. 

Sorry for the short post…..if anyone has insomnia and knows how to cope pleaseeeee tell me! 

Amy. x

So today my post shall be about babies! As my blog seems to like them. So my little one is now 4 months old (oh how time flies when your having fun) and her teeth are just settling into her gums ready to push through when shes a bit older. Now we all know that toothache completely sucks and is dead painful….i know this at the moment as my Wisdom teeth are just poking up…and let me tell you it is not the most joyous thing i have had happen to me. This little teething problem is now causing my little one to feed erratically and to whine and cry whenever she gets a small pain. Understandable yes?  I have no problem with this….until the night. This is the time i have now gotten used to her sleeping through the night…now all of a sudden im not allowed sleep..or very little of it. It feels like i’m going backwards, just like when she was first born and i was awake all night with her or up every few hours to feed her.  OK in all fairness i was warned about this after a few weeks by Wayne who said “you’ll get used to her sleeping in then BAM it will change suddenly” oh how god damn right he was.

Teething is driving me completely insane! Parents must lose their minds when they have a child…feels like i am to be perfectly honest. Although there are plus sides, shes finding her voice more and learning that she can have some sort of weird conversation with me when she wants to. This conversation amounts to nothing on my part but she thinks that she is saying proper words when really all that’s happening is a bit of dribble and a few “blah blerg” words come out of her mouth. I must admit its dead cute.

Smiling has now become a regularity. Now i don’t care how stressed or out of my mind i’m going as soon as she looks at me and smiles i turn into mush. It’s like some superpower she has that just makes me okay, to smile. It’s the weirdest feeling but one of the best being a mum. It lights up my day and allows me to look at my daughter and think she is the most precious and beautiful thing to happen to me.

my gorgeous daughter

I live 200 miles from my family (whom i am visiting next week) which has really taken a knock to  my confidence in “friend making”, along with the fact i haven’t been in a hugely social situation for about a year now since being pregnant etc. So i have been reccommended to attend some mums groups with my little one. This is something that i did not want to do originally and am still pretty scared of. However, i cannot sit around being scared of things, i’m 21 and a mum for godsake. So this friday coming i will be attending a babies group at my local health center to try and meet other mums in the area. It would be nice to have a few more friends up here and be able to pop round to their house or have them come to mine, take the kids to the park and such…..so i am looking forward to it but i am very apprehensive about it. Shall do a post on friday to tell you lovely readers all about it.

Haven’t been able to do anymore let’s plays, on my youtube channel which is a complete bummer. My recording software isn’t working properly so im going to have to get that sorted out before i can do them again. Its a big knock when you think you put up nice videos about games you enjoy and then no-one looks at them. I have done a few “Let’s pay” and only got 30 veiwers in the past 2 months….not exactly a spur on and no comments.

Have to excuse the rant today, sleep deprivation and stress has really taken its toll on me today.

Muchlove. A.